Hodge Podge

Douche is my new favorite word. And dolt. I like that one a lot too.

I am sorry I let you down. They say I didn't, but I know I did.

Things that make me smile:
1. chapstick
2. music
3. the large amounts of alcohol I have consumed in the last five days

Things that make me frown:
1. everything not listed above, including but not limited to work, dramatic bitches, dramatic bitches at work, and so on and so forth.

I had a friend come back into my life recently who I haven't been able to talk to since August or September. I've told him of things that have happened since he's been gone and he is having the most difficult time grasping the fact that I have changed. He expected things would be the same, with good reason, he had no idea what had gone on. But it's almost as though he refuses to accept that things are different. That I am different. It's frustrating because we used to be close but now I find everything he says and does is childish and immature. Maybe I grew up. I still have my moments where I can be silly, but I have such low tolerance for anything anymore. Finally he said to me that the world was waiting for me to come back, to be me again. Maybe he's right, maybe he's not. I'm okay with who I am now and perhaps he's not that good of a friend after all if he can not accept it.

JT in seven days. Hott